I want to ask what you think of me.
I want to know your candid thoughts when you hear my name.
I want to know what swims through your mind when you hear a song I used to sing, windows down, blasting.
I want to know if you ever think of me the same times I think of you.
I want to know if despite what you tell others and try to tell yourself, you miss me.
I want to know if you still remember my speech patterns and the smell of that sweet perfume I still wear.
I want to ask you what you remember of me, of us, but part of me is far too scared to know the answer.
I know I’ll be met with a menacing smirk and condescending commentary that’ll only leave me destroyed
but despite knowing this,
despite knowing I will be left to bleed as you walk away,
I still want to ask.