I deleted all of our pictures yesterday.
It was like deleting memories
The times you still loved me.
I went through my phone and one by one deleted each of the 188 photographs of you,
I knew I had to do it
I couldn’t avoid it forever.
Those photos couldn’t stay there and continue haunting me.
I need to heal.
I find myself wondering if you have deleted the pictures of me off of your phone
And if you did
If you didn’t
I know I’ll never find out the answer to these questions but they still linger around my thoughts.
I kept that video you took of me on my birthday.
You say my simple name and it sounds like artwork coming from your lips.
I know I need to delete it but right now
All I have is that little clip of you speaking, of you saying my name and frankly,
I don’t want to forget that sound.